Work in Progress...

I haven't been on in a while. I guess trying to keep my feelings looked up but heck isn't that what the blog is for....to express yourself!

Well so far this year it has been really emotional. I'm missing my mom and trying to keep the kids spirits up. Every night they talk about how much they miss her. I must admit I do have some strong children.

Last night my daughter just cried and cried in the car because she misses her Granny and doesn't understand why she had to leave her. :(

My son on the other hand wants me to stay in his room, every night until he falls asleep. He tells me every night how much I remind him of his granny. :(

As mothers we do so much to make our children happy while trying to remain sane. My emotions have been all over the place and keep pushing people away. I of course have my girls but others who have been trying to get close to me or just be there for me I have been so STANK!

Yes I did admit it I have been STANK! I just rather protect my emotions by not letting anyone inside...MEN! Everyone keeps saying your going to be blessed with a great men that you deserve but I need to shed this attitude and distrust for the opposite sex.

I guess for right now I'm still a work in progress!

All in the Family

Today was the first time the NEW family came together. I wrestled with should I or should I not go because its all such a new situation. At the end of the day I just wanted to spend a wonderful Christmas with my children regardless of who was there.

To make sure I didn't back out my buddy went with me and it was much appreciated.  The children were so happy and enjoyed every bit of it! This is the first Christmas that we do not have my mom so it was extra special and important for me to spend this day with them. I can only imgine what she would say about this situation...only in her "colorful" way!!!

I can't care about what happened and what didn't happened, the hard feelings, the lies, or even the confusion of it all. I am truly enjoying life and refuse to let change disrupt the joy I so feel.

Thanks to my girls and my homies for their words and laughs. Love y'all!!!

I have a name....

Why must men always use that word "baby". I have a name! What do they think that word "baby" will do? Unlock this secret door or be this ultimate password to get what they want.

Well this chick has a name and it's not baby!

My name is the name my parents gave me when I was born into this world and its Rhonda.....

I have a name that my children who adore me and loves me unconditionally and its mommy....

I have a name that my mother and father who taught me lifes lessons and who I wish I had of listen to more often and that name is daughter....

I have a name that my friends that I laugh and cry with and that name is sister.....

And one day when the man God has chosen for me comes into my life my name will then be Queen....

So until then take note of my names because its not BABY!

It's my Birthday!!!

Me friend at work just had a birthday and not feeling as much like herself as she use to be...FLY!!! Although she is a very beautiful person it just hasn't really been in her.

As women we often get in that mood and feel like we need to reinvent ourselves. I've felt that way in the past myself. I've colored my hair, cut my hair, change up my style....and here I am again in reinvent mode!!!

Well....she got a card for her birthday that really inspired me and I wanted to share it with ya'll.

It's my Birthday...

B-Be Myself
I-Invite new challenges
R-Recall past triumphs
T-Trust my instincts
H-Have Faith in my abilities
D-Desire only the best
A-Affirm my strenghts
Y-Yes I got what it Takes

Believe in yourself Ladies.. You got this!!!

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kl4nt9ydQPs

And you call yourself a professional....

I can't believe that yet again I am home on a saturday because this sorry plumber ain't doing his job.
For two weeks in a row this sorry dude came over messed stuff up, leave to go get materials and never come back. Then when you call he don't answer the phone.

Now all this time I haven't said much of anything but today he picked the wrong one! I had to GET IT OFF My CHEST and let him have it. I went off so bad about his lack of professionalism that he was like he taking the stuff back and we need to get another plumber.

I would blast him on BBB but he probably aint even registered with them. I do not understand why people don't think when you do them wrong that you aren't suppose to have something to say.

This stupid nigga suppose to be come back so lets see how this go.....

Keep ya posted